Toots + Dill...Life Lately

Happy Thursday Everyone! Well, I'm going to try and make it a happy one...In South Eastern New York it's a little dreary today. Our first sprinkle of snow is peeking around the corner and a rainstorm is ready get started. But it's a good day rainy day to get things done.

Today I thought I would share a few things going on with Craig and I that don't exactly fit nicely into a single topic blog post. In an effort to bare my true self here I can't let these little things go unspoken.

Tomorrow a change is going to happen that truly makes my soul happy. My grandma, my mother's mother, is moving into a nursing home literally 15 minutes from home. Back in June, my grandfather passed away after a long battle of lymphoma. He was 93, god bless him. They used to live in Connecticut, about an hour and half from me and it was always a trek to go visit them. Now, the final move is happening putting my grandmother close to us all. She suffers from dementia accompanied with memory loss, but somehow I'm still in her mind and spirit. She always smiles and lights up when she sees me. She will ask me questions about Craig and life and I love giving her mini manicures. She lets me do it and it's something special I will always remember. I really hope this move is for the best! It will change a lot for my family and I'm so happy I'll get to see her more frequently! *Crossing-Fingers*

My dear sweet husband. Sometimes I wish I could wrap him in a bubble of love and 80's pop punk music forever. A few weeks ago his band broke up. He tried so hard to keep them together, promote the band, and just be the spark of light. In the end it just didn't pan out. He's out searching for a new band and it's not easy. You can't show up to a rehearsal studio and say "Hey I'm here & available! Come sign me please!" It's a process. Today is also the anniversary of his father's death. He died 10 years ago. I never got to meet my father-in-law and some years Craig is okay on this day & others he's not. I try to comfort him as much as possible because I can't fathom what he's been through. I hope he's in the mood to go out to dinner so we can get some fresh air and hopefully make some nice new memories for today. 

Me - Melanie - Toots
I'm more tired than I've ever been. I have Epstein Bar and every now and again I get so tired I can sleep for hours and hours with no relief in sight. It doesn't help that I work in Marketing/Advertising. Black Friday & Christmas sales make my job very time-consuming. I've been working longer hours and taking few lunches yet my weight still hasn't budged. The good part is that there is an end in sight. Once the holidays are over - the workload lessens tremendously. My skin is reeking havoc...the dryness is starting, stress acne everywhere, and the moisturizers are only giving momentary relief. I know the first thing I need to do is slow down and relax, but it's hard. I have to find some down time amongst the craziness.

I do have some wonderful things to look forward to through the next week. My girlfriends are all getting together for a lil tea brunch party on Saturday before the holidays hit, visiting my grandmother, stopping into see the other people in my family, and a possibility of going to see the NYC Macy's day parade on Thanksgiving! 

How Have You Been Lately?
 I'd love to hear...


  1. Totally understand the skin issue, I'm on some prescription acne stuff and my skin is just freakin' out with the weather changes. Thinkin' of your husband today and wishing him well! My brother died a year and a half ago so I know the struggle is real on the anniversary of the death.
    Linds @ Not A Mom

  2. I'm so happy that your Grandma is moving closer! My Grandmom was in a nursing home about an hour away from us and we visited once a week, but I would have loved to have her closer!